Well, managed to stuff my face silly for a week due to the postponed hypno appointment. But yesterday came around and off I went for my first "real" session. Had to see my GP in the morning as I've got bad back, and told him about this virtual gastric banding, and was all ready for him to look completely bemused, but hey, ho, he knew all about it and thinks it's great! Very supportive and gave me some good advice about how I might feel after the "op" and asked mt go back in 6 weeks so he could support me. I was really surprised and pleased by his reaction. Arrived at hypno person's place & had a general chat about my relationship with food (one of my better relationships in life, I must say) and taught how to do the Paul Mckenna "tapping" stuff - which actually, and strangely, does have some effect. Lots of mind searching discussions - then the hypno starts. Unfortunately, I'd not slept well the night before and I was really tired - and oh boy - her technique was so damn good I went to sleep! I've had hypnotherapy before so I know what to expect, but whether it was because of her, or just because I was wrapped up in a lovely blanket, with the lights dimmed and this soothing music in the background, I just zonked!

She said it didn't matter and that my subconscious would still have taken it all in. This 1st session is really only a prelude to the real stuff and I left with a relaxation CD which I have to listen to every day, a slimming CD which I don't start using until next week. a food diary and a "mood" diary. Went out for a pre-arranged curry with a friend and whilst I didn't expect anything much to happen straight away,  I really didn't each as much as normal. Now usually, I would have got home and had a kitkat or something, but I didn't want anything. The most AMAZING thing is that I've been sleeping really badly lately - a couple of hours and then awake for 3 or 4 hours and then maybe another hour or 2. But last night I slept for over 7 hours! Non-stop, woke up fresh as a daisy. And I hadn't even listened to the relaxation CD!

So this morning, I've had a filling, but reasonably healthy breakfast (the meal I'm most likely to skip). Poached egg on toast with 2 rashers grilled lean bacon and orange juice. Meant to weigh myself first thing but forgot so off to do that now. Got 2 more normal sessions before the virtual op. Definitely one next week - if she has a cancellation I'll do 2 next week, and then the op the week after.  Otherwise one the week after then the op the week before Xmas.

I'm thinking of going into a normal clothes shop and buying something that fits me. I'm thinking of my back not giving me so much pain which restricts my mobility. I'm thinking of being able to walk along the beach without being out of breath and tired after a few yards. I'm even thinking of doing some exercises. Quelles horreurs! Moi! Exercising???  I must have morphed into someone else.

So, feeling very positive this morning - is it the novelty of something new I wonder? Or am I REALLY going to go for this?

Right, off for my appointment with the bathroom scales (don't look anyone - I'll hear you all laughing & screeching when you see how much I weigh). And then onwards & upwards!!

Thanks for reading - please, please post any POSITIVE comments - I need all the support I can get!